Tired of it all...

I'm a great person. I have a great job. I have a great personality. But somehow, I'm always second best to every other man on the planet. There are women that I know love me, but because they love who they are with more I will never be with them. I'm so fucking tired of it. I deserve to be someone's first in their life. But I'm not. And I never will be. I'm tired of living and have seriously, for the first time, contemplated ending my life. I contemplated today driving to San Francisco, stopping on the middle of the Golden Gate Bridge, and then getting out of my car and just leaping to my death. I dont know what else I can do. If I'm not good enough now, I dont think I ever will be. Its very frustrating to be perpetually alone. I just want to die. I dont know what else to do.